Time management has become a massive idol in my life. I am obsessed with how I use my time. I excuse my sin of time-dolatry (my new term for the idolatry of time) by convincing myself that if the way I budget and spend my day is perfect, then I won’t waste my life. In my mind, in order to have a perfect day, I must spend part of my day in class, studying, reading the Bible, praying, talking to my mom, hanging out with friends, exercising, having an intentional meal or conversation with someone younger than me, journaling, catching up with a long distance friend, texting my sisters…etc. etc. The list goes on. If I don’t hit each requirement for what a deem a “good” day, then I have lost, and man do I hate losing. It is not that each of these things, in and of themselves, are bad. Most things in moderation are good, but I have hit excess.
Even as I am writing this, I am realizing how much I truly do idolize my time. (quick side bar) What a blessing Christ is! He is gracious enough to reveal to us idols in our lives so that we can blast them out of our lives and become sanctified and made more like himself! We are so undeserving! God grants us grace upon grace! He is good!
Time management, in my life, is bad in excess because it has become my god. Because this is the case, then, what does it mean for me to value my time in a way that makes me want to live out Ephesians 5:15-17 (Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise, but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil. Therefore, do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord is)? How do I make the best use of my time?
To answer this question, I turn to Paul’s prayer in Ephesians 3:16-21. This is my prayer –
That according to the riches of Christ’s glory he may grant me to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in my inner being, so that Christ may dwell in my heart through faith—that I, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that I may be filled with all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that I ask or think, according to the power at work within me, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
May Christ continue to reveal sin in my life. May I can continue to blot out idols and sins that so easily entangle me, and may I run after Christ with my eyes solely fixed on him, and not fixed on time, people, or possessions (Hebrews 12). May Christ dwell in me, may I be rooted and grounded in love, so that I can have the strength to comprehend with all the saints the vastness of Christ. May I know the love of Christ and by default be filled with all the fullness of God. That is my prayer.
IF Christ is first, IF I am no longer fixing my eyes and desires on things that are not Christ, then the way I spend my time will truly be glorifying to God. I will be making the best use of my time. I believe that when excessive time-dolatry is removed, Christ is there, and where Christ is, abundant joy flows forth.